Hi Guys. Sorry I feel like this more of a personal site than it is a design site but to be honest I am stressed out and I just don’t know what to do. I’m just feel stressed out, no one will never understand my pain whether you through it or not. I’m different and I know that, but stress can kill a person, well that’s what I recently learned. I know I’m not the brightest, or near that point but I devoted my whole life to be successful and all I am is a failure. All I hear is DEADLINE DEADLINE DEADLINE. And whether I can make it through them leads to my failure. Yearbook, Graduation, College. Sigh time went by too fast I’m not ready yet. Like the little chicken that cross the street to get to the other side, he through he was ready just to realize that there were new surroundings and a new territory that he would have to call home. Whether or not he would survive would be on his part. And right now I feel like that chicken, naive, bemused and STRESSED.
My parents always express how stupid I am, and compare me to all their friends children and you know I will never understand why I am the way I am. They always tell me study and do what I am suppose to but how am I supposed to learn with everyone telling me if I am not successful there is no point of life. I’m craving brains, everywhere I go I realized I’m trapped, no smiles, frowns grins and tears. From home to school and back home I realized that the pain is real that the fight harder everyday. The struggle for jobs and wealth is real. Everything. I have hit reality. It slapped me across my face and told me to wake up and stop dreaming. That’s the problem with me I’m a dreamer and this is life, in life there is no time to dream.
Sorry mom, dad I let you down. I really wish I could make it up to you, but everyday I dream, wish that there would be a miracle that changed my life forever, but those who sit around and wait get nothing so I try. Everyday I think of a reason to wake up make up my plan, set goals and hope that they follow through. But we are not perfect, it either I get distracted online or in a book or decide I want to bake a cake or brownies and there goes a perfectly good day and here I am, struggling wondering what I want to be and what I have to say, but in all I am really sorry I’m a failure that I never had the chance to be someone and make you proud to say that is my daughter! #failure #sorry